Aisalynn Writes

So, I've added a Merlin banner to the rotating header line up. Used two of the promotional shots because they were huge and shot against a plain gray background which made them beautifully easy to edit with.

Here's a smaller version of it for anyone who's interested and doesn't want to refresh my journal page a million times until it comes up. (Like I had to to do so I could see how it looked.)


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Wow. Haven't done this in a while.




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What. The. Fuck.

Chuck? What? Sammy? What?

LISA?

I just. I don't even know.

I'm just going to cry a little, and then try to speed up time by the force of my will so that it's already time for Season 6.

Thought I'd share what a little bit about my Big Bang fic. :)


Title: Disaster. (This is a Good One.)

Summary: Jared, a college drop-out, unlucky in love and a self-professed "loser" finds himself at the end of his rope. His long-time boyfriend, Misha, has ditched him at the last moment, right before the family Christmas dinner Jared'd planned to bring him to, and thanks to an untimely phone call from his mother, Jared's family thinks Misha is still coming. A series of uncomfortable moments later--including awkward phone calls to his exes, a terrible trip to the mall with is best friend where they were escorted out by security, and a run in with a schizophrenic who thought Jared was trying to take him into a secret government lab--and Jared has Jensen--an angry, former lawyer who's dedicated his life to charity work--handcuffed in his car, blackmailed and forced into pretending to be Jared's boyfriend. As the holiday stretches on and the charade he's involved in becomes less and less a lie, Jared is only sure of one thing: he should stop listening to Chad.


My artist is eryslash, and I'm extremely excited about it. You all should go check out the art on her journal, it's awesome.

So, I usually don't get involved in any kind of fandom drama--I leave my fandom activities mostly to reading/writing fanfiction, collecting/making fanart, meta discussion and squee posts. I don't care to read wank posts, I don't like bashing of actors/writers/other lj goers, and I don't spend time on the anonymous memes.

BUT.

Discussions of certain events happening at a con a few years ago, and all the reactions it has brought up here lately has been floating around my usual fandom haunts all day. It has gotten to the point that even people on my flist who are not involved in the Supernatural fandom at all are posting about it, and so my curiosity took over and I looked into it.

(For people who don't know what I'm talking about and are curious, here's a summary.)

I have to say, the reactions this person made about everything just pisses me off.

Now, I wasn't at Wincon in 2008, in fact, I wasn't in the Supernatural fandom in 2008--so I have no idea what really happened, whether or not things have been over exaggerated by people who weren't there, but I can say that the reaction posts the person in question made reeked so much of rape culture that it was horrifying. It was victim bullying. Plain and simple.

And it is exactly that kind of mind set, and those kind of demands and threats, that cause people who have been sexually assaulted to remain silent to begin with.

It deeply disgusts me.

I realize that since then she has apologized for the way she phrased things, saying that she didn't mean to hurt anyone with what she said, but it doesn't really make things better for me. The fact that, as several people have pointed out, her first reaction to finding out her actions at the con made people uncomfortable was not "Oh, I'm so sorry, I didn't realize it. Is there anything I can do to make it better?" but "These accusations are lies! Why have they not arrested me if it was true? Why don't you come forward and reveal yourselves and PROVE IT!" shocks and disappoints me.

It makes me uncomfortable. Not just about her, but about how these are the kind of thoughts and reactions concerning sexual assault, and questions of consent that just automatically pop into people's head. When something like this happens, it's more often than naught the victim who has their character and personal life scrutinized. Which brings the point of again, how can you expect them to always come forward?


I am pretty much a nobody in this fandom. I've just broken in, and I am just now making friends. I am pretty much a nobody in fandom in general, actually, and am certainly not personally connected to this situation. But I am posting this because in several comments on some of these anonymous threads I've read, people have said they would come forward to discuss this un-anonymously, but that they were a nobody so there would be no point.

My journal has less than 100 friends, and not all of them are connected to Supernatural, but I am posting this anyway. Because things like this piss me off and disgust me, and if I have to say it with my username intact to make what I say count at all, I will.

Was I the only one not so impressed with this episode?

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God, I am so hungry. I haven't eaten solid food since Sunday night, and I can barely choke down the pudding and jello I do eat. Today when Supernatural started my sister sat beside me and ate Taco Bell. I wanted to like, rip the food out of her hand and throw it at the wall. I don't care how hungry she professed to be, I haven't really eaten in almost five days and it was cruel to taunt me like that.

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I was disappointed that we didn't get to see much outside the hotel. Now I can't go on about how the scenery definitely wasn't Indiana, and how their Muncie was lacking the railroads, weird five way stops, massive amounts of liquor stores and tattoo parlors (college town, hello) and the ghastly amount of potholes in roads. Though I do have to say that that must have been a very long detour from I90, since it runs near South Bend, which is almost three hours north of Muncie.

Finally managed to watch it today.

Not going to say much, except that I like Eleven. :) Still missed Ten, but Matt Smith had me grinning though out the episode. Also, I really liked the camera angles in this episode, and just the general feel of it. (With the exception of the weird connect the dots cellphone thing.) I'm a little less worried about Steven Moffat taking over after this episode, though still a little wary about whether or not he's going to sacrifice character development for flashy plots. We'll see.



Also, is anybody else having trouble with Livejournal today? It's such a pain in the ass here lately.

OH MY GOD KRIPKE. HOW CAN AN EPISODE BE SO GOOD AND YET RIP OUT MY HEART AND FUCKING STOMP ON IT AT THE SAME TIME?

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Oh, and hi everyone. I've been missing from livejournal for a while. My thyroid hasn't been acting like it should if it had "classic" Hashimoto's, so my new doctor (a specialist) has taken me off all meds for a month so we can start over. Which means I'm back to sleeping a lot. Yay. *sigh*