DO NOT JUDGE ME please

you and me, we're ready for the major leagues (12706 words) by Lirazel
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Pitt (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Melissa "Mel" King/Frank Langdon
Characters: Frank Langdon, Melissa "Mel" King, The Pitt (TV) Ensemble
Additional Tags: Post-Season/Series 01, Backstory, Divorced Frank Langdon, Pining, Getting Together, frank has a thing for nerdy girls (which is really just another way of saying 'passionate women')
Summary:

“Does she know?” Cassie asks.

“No. Fuck, I hope not.” The thought of Mel having any idea of the cesspool of emotion inside him terrifies him. He knows her well enough to be pretty sure that she wouldn’t be disgusted or scared, but she might feel pressure, feel awkward. She might pull away. He’d rather die.

“Four more months. Are you going to tell her?”

He can’t even begin to answer that.

lirazel: Britta from Community raising her hand with the text "I have feelings about this" ([tv] as usual)
([personal profile] lirazel Sep. 15th, 2025 08:25 am)
Well, it happened. I stumbled headlong into a new fandom, as I am wont to do. I don't know how long it will last, but for right now, my new hyperfixation is The Pitt.

I am not into medical dramas as a rule, but I was very intrigued by the fact that this one is shot virtually in real time--each episode is an hour in a shift in an emergency room at a hospital in Pittsburgh. I am an absolute sucker for real-time media, and I had heard nothing but good things about the show, so I decided to watch it. I watched the first half a couple weeks back and it was ridiculously good, but it's also incredibly realistic both about how much the healthcare "system" in teh US sucks but also just about how bad things are in the US in general, so I had to take a break from it because I was overwhelmed by life.

But then after shul on Friday night, I watched all the rest, and then I was like, "I wonder if any of my favorite authors have written fic for this," and then I got sucked in and spent the whole weekend reading fic, except for yesterday afternoon and evening, when I spent the whole time writing fic, and now I have 10k words of fic and so many feels.

It kind of blows my mind, how good this show is. Occasionally it goes a little heavy-handed with things, and it's trying to address, like every aspect of American culture right now (gun violence, drug abuse, incels, political polarization around things like masks, the WebMD-ification of life, etc.), but strangely it mostly pulls it off? Probably because an ER is the perfect place to do this, actually, because it's one of the few places in the country where a genuine cross-section of the population converges and people end up spending time with people from different demographics while being very vulnerable. The sheer Muchness of everything that's going on in the show is really realistic, and I hear that the medical stuff is too.

The cast is fanfreakingtastic and the writing is so good and the direction is so good and wow! It's so good!

Anyway, if any of y'all have watched it and made posts about it, link me! I want to know your thoughts!

And now, even though nobody asked, my top ten favorite characters!

1. Mel - nothingcompares2u.mp3. My baby my darling my sweetheart my best girl. I would die on a battlefield for her and I want her to have every good thing in the whole entire world.
2. Mohan - The most beautiful, kind, and empathetic woman in the world is also a workaholic with no life and no friends. Incredible. No notes. I would watch an entire show about her crying in the bathroom. Or marry her. Y'know, whichever.
3. Dana - We all know a woman like that, right? Way too competent, way too underpaid. Everyone adores her but she’s still somehow underappreciated. I am so glad she’s coming back next season but also NO ONE HAS EVER DESERVED TO RETIRE MORE THAN SHE DOES. The world does not deserve her.
4. Cassie - Imagine her life. And she just keeps going. She’s a superhero. No wonder her ex is still obsessed with her even though he's The Worst.
5. Perlah and Princess - The Statler and Waldorf of this show. What would we do without their snark and gossip and facial reactions to everything? 10/10.
6. Garcia - Every time she comes into the room I want to burst with happiness. I love what a bitch she is. I am so glad I don’t know her in real life because she would both terrify me and piss me off. Lesbian ice queen, I’m calling it.
7. Whitaker - I bet you were wondering when a dude would show up on this list. Well there’s only one, but no surprise that it is the poor bedraggled puppy dog who got left outside in the rain. I am rooting for him. You're a good man, Dennis Whitaker.
8. Collins - The second most beautiful woman in the world. She breaks my heart. LET HER HAVE WHAT SHE WANTS DAMMIT.
9. Santos, actually - I still don’t actually like her, but what a fanfreakingtastic character. Top tier writing.
10. Javadi - She’s at the bottom of the list because she triggers my second-hand embarrassment too much. But you’re doing great, bb girl.

I actually love everyone, but but the LADIES!!! THE LADIES!!!!

And now a word about shipping:

So I watched the show without any particular shippy feelings. I of course had favorite dynamics because I am me, but I was just letting the whole thing wash over me and loving all the individual characters.

But then after I finished the show, I made the mistake of thinking, "I wonder if any of my favorite fanfic writers have written for this?" and it turned out that several had, including one who has written, like, hundreds of thousands of words of fic, and it all just happens to be Mel/Langdon, and fastforward to now and I...um...might have a new ship? Not in the sense that I want them to be together in canon--I don't think that's necessary and in fact I loooove their platonic dynamic on the show--but in the, "yes, I absolutely will read every halfway decent fic about these two that I can find."

Mostly I think the appeal is that I love Mel so damn much and I want someone to love and adore her as much as she deserves it, and thankfully said fanfic writer decided to write Langdon as being really unhinged with how much he loves and wants Mel, and I am a sucker for that. I am mostly a person who wants all the foundations of a relationship laid out in canon--y'know, your Mulder/Scully, Spock/Kirk, Buffy/Spike, Wangxian kinds of dynamics where they're clearly so ridiculously important to each other and we've seen it in front of our own two eyes. But very occasionally, a really great fandom can fill in the blanks for me, and wow, I guess that's what happened with this.

I so so so so so do not want to get into ship wars about this, which I have heard of from afar. Apparently they've got the biggest No Romo contingent since MSR, but I want to stay far far away from it. I 1000% respect anyone who doesn't ship it but I don't want to hear about it elseweb. I trust my friends here to be like, "Yeah, not for me," but live and let ship, but in other places on the internet? No way.

And also...I wrote a whole entire fic about them yesterday and am now already planning on a second. ¯\_(ツ)_/



Now I've gotta find time to make some icons....
lirazel: the worlds "care and freedom" in various shades of blue ([misc] care and freedom)
([personal profile] lirazel Sep. 11th, 2025 09:06 am)
I just need to get this out.

Cut for US political talk.

I am not sorry that Charlie Kirk is no longer part of this world. But now he'll be a martyr, and martyrs are dangerous. He will probably be every bit as dangerous in death as he was in life. I don't see how this improved the world. And I am just so fucking sick of guns.

It's not that I'm never against killing dangerous political leaders. The world would have been a better place if certain dangerous but powerful people had been killed (right now Netanyahu comes to mind). But I think that it's genuinely more constructive to figure out other ways to temper or undermine their power than to resort to violence--I really just think that works better. And of course the true goal should be to keep these people from gaining power in the first place.

I don't know, y'all. Things in my country just seem very, very dark right now and this doesn't feel to me like this made it any brighter.
Tags:
Title: Five Moments in Liz Shaw's Life as an Alien (and One Before She Knew)
Fandom: Doctor Who
Characters/Pairing(s): Liz Shaw, Third Doctor, the Brig, Benton
Rating: Teen
Word count: 1,681
Spoilers: None
Summary: Liz Shaw, unexpectedly always an alien.

Author's notes: Written for the Always an Alien square on my Keep Fandom Weird bingo card. Thanks to [personal profile] platypus for the beta.

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I have not felt like watching anything serious for the last couples of weeks, so what did I decide to do instead? I am watching Due South for the first time since it was airing! The show was my family's favorite when I was a kid, and I have memories of the characters and the vibes, but I have zero memory of the details. It's been really fun revisiting it and I am currently ten episodes in.

Is this show good? Not by any objective standard. Is it profoundly silly? It sure is! But y'all, I love Benton Fraser so much. As a child, I imprinted on him like a little baby ducking, and my affection is even more intense now. He's such a doof! And so good! I love men who are just so good! He's like Clark Kent if Clark Kent was even more of a loser and also Canadian and also had a deaf wolf as a pet.

I also do love RayV a whole whole lot and I am thoroughly enjoying these episodes even if I am looking forward to season 3 and the shippy goodness.

For those who are not aware of this Canadian cop show from the 90s, it started off as a one-off TV movie in which Paul Gross is Benton Fraser, a Mountie whose Mountie father gets murdered and he has to track down the murderers in Chicago. While there he meets Ray Vecchio, who is a central casting Italian-American cop and very funny. They have a typical odd couple partnership, and end up uncovering a big conspiracy back in Canada that implicates so many powerful people that Fraser pretty much has to just to get out of the country for a while, so he goes back to Canada, where he works at the consulate and solves ridiculous crimes with his deaf wolf Diefenbaker and with RayV.

However! In season 3, RayV leaves the show (for reasons I'm not clear on) and who do we get instead? A very young Callum Keith Rennie as Ray Kowalsky (RayK) who has ridiculously good chemistry with Gross. Ostensibly the show doesn't change--it's still overly earnest Mountie solves crimes with streetwise Chicago cop--but the dynamic is completely different. Fraser and RayV are buddies and such fun together and they love each other a lot, but Fraser and RayK are major slashbait. Like one of the great Western TV slash ships a la Starsky and Hutch and the Man from UNCLE dudes. And once I get to their seasons, I am going to need all the fic recs, especially the stuff that was written in the 90s and early 2000s.

As I said, despite its extreme silliness, I am having a lot of fun. The show (so far) has aged incredibly well in that Fraser's whole thing is that he believes in people who are written off by everyone else, so in the first few episodes, we get him standing up for a Black boy with a criminal record, a Latina immigrant mother whose children get taken away from her, a working class white guy single father who is involved in an insurance scam, a Chinese immigrant man whose son is being targeted by organized crime, and a white kid who's just out of juvie and is trying to turn his life around. Fraser is like, "This person is in difficult circumstances and is either innocent or is being coerced into something they don't want to do, and if we give them a chance, they will do the right thing." AND HE IS ALWAYS RIGHT.

He chooses to live in a really "bad" area of town because it allows him to walk to work (which probably doesn't make sense from an actual-geography-of-Chicago perspective but who cares?) and while we get lots of jokes about crime, in actuality, we end up seeing that the people who live in this neighborhood are just people who are struggling.

I love it so much. I truly feel if this show was airing today, it would be hated by conservatives and decried as too woke.

This all ends up softening the fact that this show is a cop show. It doesn't feel like copaganda in the way most cop shows do, which is probably why I can enjoy it so much.

It's full of 90s music--I keep getting surprised by the songs they include. Is that Tracy Chapman? It sure is! Is that Sarah McLachlan? Hey, it's the 90's! (Honestly there's so much Sarah McLachlan. Omg they're actually playing the Crash Test Dummies' "Superman"? Of course they are! My jaw absolutely dropped when I recognized Loreena McKennitt! I mean, I wasn't that surprised her music was included because it's a Canadian show from the 90s, and that was certainly her heyday, but I was gobsmacked that the song in question was "Prospero's Speech" and not one of her more familiar songs.

Honestly, the 90s music and fashion and just general vibes are making me so nostalgic. I know that the 90s were not that great for everyone, but I was a child then, so it makes sense that it feels like a simpler time to me. This is what the world is supposed to look like! Because it's the world I got used to as a child! It's really nice to reivist it in this way.

The one thing that kind of annoys me is the women thing. The truly main cast is just Fraser, his wolf, and whichever Ray he's working with at the moment. But there's also the people back at Ray's precinct office--his male boss, his two annoying male coworkers, and the very competent lady cop who actually does most of the work. I like Elaine a lot! But she develops a crush on Fraser at the beginning and that kind of becomes her thing? Besides being competent? I am hoping she'll get other things to do as the show carries on.

Honestly, too many of the women in the show fall in love with Fraser. And on the one hand, I can certainly understand this! I am also in love with Fraser! He has ruined me for men! He's just so good and so pretty! I like that the show is like, "Actually, despite what some people say, women don't always go for the bad boy--if you give them a really righteous and pretty man, they will fall for him hard." Which I appreciate! But I feel like they push the joke too far.

Because the joke is that Fraser loves and respects women and treats them like actual human beings, but as soon as they start hitting on him or expressing interest in him, he has no idea how to handle it. He's so awkward!

And like, obviously fandom read this as, "Look at this poor gay man who doesn't know how to deal with female romantic/sexual attention." But the show doesn't actually know he's gay, which is hilarious to me because he is so gay. Like, there are a couple of moments so far in which it seems to imply that he might actually be interested in a woman, and I am like, "Give me a break." It's not remotely convincing.

Anyway, it's not a huge complaint because the women who show up (like the immigrant mother or another mother whose boyfriend MARK RUFFALO is trying to sell their baby yes you actually read those words with your own two eyes) are treated respectfully and like real people. It's just the women around the edges who fall for Fraser too easily.

I actually really liked the amoral reporter lady we met in one of the first episodes who isn't in love with Fraser, and I think it would have been really fun if she'd become recurring. She would have been a nice balance for Elaine. But alas! The main cast is male!

The guest stars are wild, though! So many familiar faces! In the first ten episodes, we have been visited by Eric Schweig (Uncas from The Last of the Mohicans, who I am very fond of), Leslie Nielsen (as another mountie), Teri Polo (aka First Lady Helen Santos from The West Wing), baby Mark Ruffalo (okay, he's in his mid-20s, but he looks like a baby to me), and baby Ryan Phillippe (who probably was a teenager at the time). I so look forward to seeing who else pops up!

I imagine the show would be grating for Canadians because Fraser is such a cliche, and a great deal of the humor of the show comes from the contrast between him and his Chicago setting. But I choose to view the show as less "isn't it funny when a Canadian has to navigate Chicago?" and instead "isn't it funny when this very particular individual who has lived in the Yukon his whole life and was raised by his librarian grandparents has to navigate Chicago?"

So yeah, enjoying the show a lot, looking forward to seeing how things develop, and definitely anticipating the future slash of it all!
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