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[aisalynn]

So today my little sister drags me out of bed and tells me I'm taking her school shopping--something that was supposed to happen on the of the The Fight, but was put off because of it until now. Only, instead of my mother taking my sister to Khole's or Wal-mart and restricting her to a few pairs of jeans and few shirts, my mother hands me a credit card and tells me to go to the outside mall and "get you guys some clothes and to just try and be reasonable about the price."

Oh yeah. I can recognize a bribe when I see one.

At first I was completely against accepting anything from her--I went through five or six shops with my little sister and didn't buy a thing, just focused on getting her clothes, and then we came to one of my favorites stores--one where I love all the clothes but never buy them because I can't afford it--and decided to hell with it. I bought myself a couple of You-Broke-All-My-Shit shirts and then topped it off at another store with a pair of You-Caused-Me-Serious-Emotional-Distress jeans, and then another shirt just because I could.

I would like to say that I am above guilt money and that I'm going to maintain the Mortally Wounded and Pissed Off attitude I have kept up these past few days, but really it is exhausting to keep giving the silent treatment to someone you live with (yesterday my mother asked me if I was ever going to speak to her again. My answer was a rather angry "Not today."), especially when you yourself are a very laid back, hard to piss off, likes to joke around, forgive and forget type person.

So. I'm still rather pissed off at her, but I'm playing nice to keep the peace in the house for the week I still live here.

I don't know if this makes me a better person, or a weak one.


In other news, I finished my J2 fic, and sent it to my beta. It was nearly 11,000 words. That's pretty long for me. I'm going crazy waiting for it to be sent back, because as my first J2, first RPS, and first ever AU I'm extremely nervous about it.

Comments

[ophelia-winters.livejournal.com]

Nothing like a little retail therapy! I hope you were able to enjoy yourself a little while you were out, if even just a bit. You really deserve it after the trauma your mother has put you through.
But congrads on your fic! That is amazingly long!

[pfeifferpack.livejournal.com]

Makes you human. I think you are owed actually. Wish your dad would take your mom in hand and protect his kids from the craziness there. Is she bi-polar?

{{{hugs}}} Glad you bought the clothes, you earned them kiddo!

Kathleen

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

I don't know if this makes me a better person, or a weak one. Listen, I am physically and mentally incapable of holding a grudge. If I don't like you as a person, whatever. But if you're actually a part of my life, I lose all my anger within an hour or two. I will try to be mad, and it just doesn't work. I can't do it. So...I know exactly what you mean here.

But hey! While you're deciding, at least you get to look cute in new clothes, right?

[foreverxkisses.livejournal.com]

I'm like this too, can't keep a grudge for the life of me. I usually can't even tell people I'm angry at them, I just feel bad about it. Man I'm a push-over.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Well, that makes me feel slightly better about myself. At least I'm not the only one!

[foreverxkisses.livejournal.com]

Yup. One of my 'closest' friends is a pathological lier, but I can't ever seem to call her on it, even when it is a big deal.
Right now I am just avoiding her because I know I'll forgive her even though it isn't quite worth it.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Ugh. That stinks. Typically when I really, actually don't like people, I don't have much of a problem with it, so it hasn't been hugely harmful in my life--i.e. I haven't gotten run over or taken advantage of horribly. But I can imagine it easily.

[tangledwood.livejournal.com]

I'm getting to all of this pretty late but holy jesus on a bus full of nuns, this SUCKS. And taking the money is 100% okay; just because it's intended as guilt money doesn't mean you have to accept it as guilt money. You don't owe her anything at this point. And yeah, you deserve some new things after she wrecked all of your (presumably somewhat invaluable) shit.

Also, I don't know your circumstances and I'm craptastic at keeping up with everyone's LJs so forgive me for asking this if you've covered it somewhere else, but have you ever thought of moving away permanently?

[cordykitten]

She destroyed your stuff so in a way she is paying you to get it back. I see it this way. And you don't have long now till you move out. *hugs*