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[aisalynn]

Today has been a very bad day. I'm shakey and nervous, my face is puffy and I serously need to calm down.

I was denied the loan.

The stupid bank dragged out the process for months and now I'm partway through the semester, already owe two thousand dollars to the school and I don't have the money. Not to mention the sixteen thousand dollars I already owe for my first year of college which means nothing if I don't finish school.

I'm freaking out. A bit. Had what seemed to be a minor panic attack when I was on the phone with my friend. She's gonna come over later and we're going to go out. She says she's "going to do her goddamn best to cheer me up." Bless her.

I have no more classes... I think I'm just going to listen to some Simon and Garfunkel and read fanfiction until she gets here... and you know, keep breathing.

*breathes*

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[aisalynn.livejournal.com]

Not just the loan for my books, the loan for school period. As in, tuition, board, random expenses, the whole thing. If I don't get one, I'm really really screwed.

So that means... *gratefully takes the "token of affection"* These things might be reeaaal useful.

I really wish I could help with judging, I was rather looking forward to doing just that, but my life is a bit too crazy at the moment. Not just with the loan, but with family and school. I have two tests and a lab report coming up, a birthday party, a baby shower, a trip to virginia and visit to an aunt in the hospital--all in the next few days. Meanwhile I'm getting more and more stressed out and scatterbrained. o.O

[sinstralpride.livejournal.com]

Fuck. Actually, fuckfuckfuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck. >< And fuck the republicans who screwed up our country too, while I'm at it!

That's really horrible. I had a similar [but not quite so horrible] thing happen with me. I found out that I was no longer eligible for a $5,000 grant about a month before the end of the previous semester. And then my father kindly informed me that my grades "weren't acceptable" and that he wouldn't be helping me pay for the next year. THEN I was turned down for 2 different loans. [they wanted a co-signer, which my dad refused to do.] Thankfully I hadn't already started the school year.

I expend most of my anger planning the perfect murder. But when I'm REALLY pissed I just plan the one that would be the most fun. ^_^ That's the stuff I gave you. The christmas tree stand is for the one arm that we're not going to bury. Thing is... you take the arm and brace it in place [elbow locked, middle finger up] while it rigors, then place it in the stand. Then the stand goes on the loan officer's desk for all their asshole colleagues to find. ^_^ Heee. ... I might have spent too much time thinking about this. ><

It's all right. We will manage. But be sure to read some of the great fics from the Olympics to cheer yourself up!

*gives fresh-baked cookies* I'm always here if you need to rant, or need to brainstorm in order to get your life back on track.

♥ Sin