There are times where things are so distorted, you might be seeing them as they really are.

[aisalynn]

I got to go to youth today. I got to go to the bible study before hand even. Of course, there was an argument with my mother before hand, but not as bad. At youth I was informed I should be a psychiatrist, which made me laugh. How can I help anyone else, when I can't even help myself?

Its funny how when I do come to youth, the topic is usually something that I'm struggling with. I mean, not just a "I can relate to that" kind of way, but in a, I desperately need to fix this and I know You keep giving me these signs, these solutions, this love. He hasn't given up on me yet. Isn't that amazing?

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laugh just a little too loud
smile just a little too wide
and maybe they won't notice
how you're aching inside

take a deep breath
go on with your day
don't try to think about
how things never seem to go your way

And when you're alone
you keep your eyes down
no one will notice
no one's around

and you hum to yourself
little nonsical sounds
because of your fear that
the silence will bring you down

lock yourself in
hold on tight
to your belief that
it will all be all right

cause when you,

laugh just a little too loud
and smile just a little too wide
they won't notice,
just maybe, they won't notice
how you're aching inside.

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I thought of you again today,
but I'm sure you didn't think of me.