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Have you ever looked at your life, and though there seemed to be plenty going your way, you just feel empty? You've got great friends, great family, good grades (with the exception of maybe one subject, but you still feel like you have nothing? Or rather, you feel that there isn't much meaning in everything you have? If you have, you know what I'm going through.
I shouldn't feel like this. I haven't felt like this in three years, since before Christ came into my life. But I can't help but look at my friends, and they've got these plans, these ideas, these relationships. They have something going for them. And I think, why don't I have that? Not that they have perfect lives or anything. I mean, one of my best friends has cancer again, another friend has a sucky neglectful dad, another is so overprotected he can barely do anything. But for some reason when I think about them, I just feel... sad. Don't ask me why, I can't pin point it exactly. I guess I'm just discontent. I feel as if I should be doing something, rushing forward to something, but I know not what.
I shouldn't feel like this. I haven't felt like this in three years, since before Christ came into my life. But I can't help but look at my friends, and they've got these plans, these ideas, these relationships. They have something going for them. And I think, why don't I have that? Not that they have perfect lives or anything. I mean, one of my best friends has cancer again, another friend has a sucky neglectful dad, another is so overprotected he can barely do anything. But for some reason when I think about them, I just feel... sad. Don't ask me why, I can't pin point it exactly. I guess I'm just discontent. I feel as if I should be doing something, rushing forward to something, but I know not what.
