I love cheese. (This seems random, but is, in fact, relevant.)

[aisalynn]

Once again I am in an empty room at the church my sister works at, writing a gay love story while waiting for her to be done. Or, well, frantically editing a gay love story, since I just realized that I have just eight days until my Big Bang posting date and I'm not with this beast of a story. Which reminds me, I already have a beta but anyone on my flist willing to give this a read through and tell me what they think? You don't have to some serious beta-ing (unless, of course you want to) I'm just looking for general reactions and thoughts. You know, whether the progression and characterizations seem natural. I realize that this is a horrible thing to ask with just little over a week before my posting date, but I kinda got distracted with all this health crap and got behind. (It's kinda hard to write and edit when you are sleeping most of the time.)

Speaking of the Health Crap, I got the test results back on the celiac's panel and they were negative. However, they still want me to go through with the upper endoscopy tomorrow because they want to look for a some kind of bacterial infection in my intestines. Also, the food allergy IGE came back and, just like I thought, I'm allergic to milk.

Hah. Take that, Mother. I told you years ago when you were forcing me to drink milk with every meal that I got sick and thought I was lactose intolerant or something, and you always just scoffed at me. Well look. I am. And if you had stopped giving it to me as a child I might have grown out of it.

My triumph on that account is almost completely dwarfed, however, by my absolute horror at the fact that my doctor thinks that I might still be gluten sensitive and that even though my allergy to milk is mild, and I don't have any sort of reaction to say, cheese, I should give up both gluten and dairy for good.

Gluten and dairy.

Both.

I literally, literally cried when my mother told me this.

Now, I've been told I'll get over this, that this could be good for me because I'll expand my food horizons and be healthier and probably learn to cook since if I want to eat anything than just slabs of meat and salad I'll have to cook my own meals, and that after a while I won't miss these foods at all, but still I can't help but be upset, because, well, cheese.

I love it. My one consolation when I heard I might have to live gluten free, was that at least I could still have nachos. (You have no idea how much I love nachos.)


Well, since this might be my last night of gluten and dairy, my little sister and I are going out to eat. I'm getting a blooming onion, since I love it so much and will definitely miss it. I tried to force my friend Jasmine to go with me, but she said she just got off work and was too tired and wanted to take a nap. *Makes face at her* Bah. I've been exhausted for a year now. If I stay awake for more than five hours straight I get so tired I feel like crying, and still I drag myself out of bed to see her when she complains that it seems like I fell off the face of the earth, she sees me so little. *sticks tongue out at her*

Not that I'm really mad at her. Just at the world in general, my doctor who can't give me anything definite but still wants me to drastically change my diet for the rest of my life, and my bad luck. :(


Now I'm going to go back to editing my J2 love story to make myself feel better.

Comments

[yourkidney.livejournal.com]

:hugs: bb that sucks! But I do have to agree with whoever said it would expand your food horizons - I went vegan a couple years ago (and I'm relapsing into ice cream a bit >.> but whatever. Ice cream vegans exist, y/y?) and it's made me try a ton of cool new foods, and I've gotten to experiment a ton and it's actually been pretty good for me. And if you are able to have more energy at the end of this whole nightmare, then that's a definite plus.

And I'd love to look over/beta your BB! (lol ohgod my mom and her stupid love of editing things has rubbed off on me so hard… o.o) I'm home until the middle of the day on Friday this week, and I get back early on Monday, so any other time I'm around and could totally look it over for you!

I hope you feel better soon. xo

[anyothergirl415.livejournal.com]

Hey!!! I would be more than happy to read your story over for you :D I've got some free time (thank god I'm done with my own big bang!) and can definitely find the time to read it! So if you want you can email it to me at steadydownfall06@yahoo.com If you remember I'm pretty good at the squealy honest reactions hahaha

[jebbypal]

Probably avoiding all dairy as your system gets back into balance is a good idea, but there are a number of people with allergies that can eat their allergen if its denatured (ie cooked). Probably, the curing process of the cheese reduces the allergen alot so it's possible that once you reintroduce it you'll be fine. But, after going through a detox for a while from the allergens, you'll notice fairly quickly if you have any response (be it emotional - yes, my allergy attacks play heck with my temper - or physical)

*hugs* I hope that they figure it out and that it turns out to not be as limiting as it seems. I know when I figured out my corn allergy, shopping and cooking seemed daunting. But not having sinus infections, bowel trouble, and being able to stay awake soon balanced things enough to make up for it. Though I did crave corn-containing things for a few years. Nowadays, I just shrug when sweets are brought in to the office. Though I do miss mexican. :( But my binges on southwestern style stuffed peppers generally makes up for it.

The nice thing is you can actually find a lot of gluten free/dairy free combo cookbooks on amazon if it turns out you need both. So at least you won't have to wander around learning from scratch.

Your Beta here....

[sonnygrl11.livejournal.com]

Two things I love most in this world... Cheese... and Bacon...

I know if I could erase both from my dietary consumption, I would probably be 15% healthier and possibly on my way to losing weight (which my disability cries out for me to do)... but I just CANNOT fathom my life without either. I've already given up sweets and larger portions of food... just can't do anymore. Oh, well... I'm better when I can maintain than freak out and become depressed about what I can't eat anymore.

I have no doubt if I went to a gluten-free diet my health would improve greatly. Just can't do it. I love food too much.

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Funny, you should mention the fic... I was just about to start constructing an email to you, tell you I was ready and willing whenever you were ready, if you had gotten back into the BB Groove again. I wasn't sure if you'd be able to work on the writing with all of the sleeping and medical appointments you were doing. Not to mention just having to deal with the upcoming changes to your life; diet and otherwise.

Send it to me whenever. I will start working on it, thoroughly, the second I find it in my email. Even if it's close to the wire of posting date. (Gosh, it's already here! June took so long to get over)

Oh, yeah... that is if I'm still the "beta" you're talking about (hehehe)...

Can't wait to re-read and see what new stuff you've added.

hugs...Sonny

[worn-words.livejournal.com]

not sure if this will help or not, but I went dairy & wheat free for a couple months and it really helped my sensitivities. you can try cutting out little things, just for a little while, and then maybe try the bigger things. don't jump into it too quick! it will just make you frustrated, believe me. there are also tests you can have to determine exactly what types of gluten and/or dairy you're sensitive to (example: I'm sensitive to wheat/barley and cow dairy, but I can still have oats etc. and goat/sheep milk). the only problem is that the tests are pretty expensive.

I take enzymes before every meal just in case there is something in there I'm sensitive to (and take more enzymes during the meal if I know for sure there's something in it). these (http://www.houston-enzymes.com/store/product.php?p=4&c=1) are the ones I use, but I would definitely talk to your doctor about it. they've helped me a lot with my sensitivities but that doesn't mean they're the right thing for everyone. I just like to take the natural approach, and it's worked so far :)

[cantarina]

I'm sorry, my "It will be okay!" posts probably haven't been helpful when you're freaked out and trying to mourn.

Good luck with you Big Bang and I hope you enjoyed your blooming onion!

[ophelia-winters.livejournal.com]

Shit. That sucks on so many levels, but don't worry too much. You'll find a ways to make it work out. There's a book I have called "Sweet Alternatives" which all about making gluten/dairy free desserts. And it's really good!
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[canyon_deye.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, that sounds really hard. Maybe all those good things will happen, though, and you'll find new favorites from new food thingies! :) *cheers*

Good luck, bb.

[cordykitten]

There is some lactose free cheese - but not every cheese is made this way.
*hugs*
At last you know more, hope they know for sure soon and can help you.

[paceyringwald.livejournal.com]

"Gluten and dairy. " Dude! :O No no no no no no, this is wrong in so many levels. O_o