Once again I am in an empty room at the church my sister works at, writing a gay love story while waiting for her to be done. Or, well, frantically editing a gay love story, since I just realized that I have just eight days until my Big Bang posting date and I'm not with this beast of a story. Which reminds me, I already have a beta but anyone on my flist willing to give this a read through and tell me what they think? You don't have to some serious beta-ing (unless, of course you want to) I'm just looking for general reactions and thoughts. You know, whether the progression and characterizations seem natural. I realize that this is a horrible thing to ask with just little over a week before my posting date, but I kinda got distracted with all this health crap and got behind. (It's kinda hard to write and edit when you are sleeping most of the time.)

Speaking of the Health Crap, I got the test results back on the celiac's panel and they were negative. However, they still want me to go through with the upper endoscopy tomorrow because they want to look for a some kind of bacterial infection in my intestines. Also, the food allergy IGE came back and, just like I thought, I'm allergic to milk.

Hah. Take that, Mother. I told you years ago when you were forcing me to drink milk with every meal that I got sick and thought I was lactose intolerant or something, and you always just scoffed at me. Well look. I am. And if you had stopped giving it to me as a child I might have grown out of it.

My triumph on that account is almost completely dwarfed, however, by my absolute horror at the fact that my doctor thinks that I might still be gluten sensitive and that even though my allergy to milk is mild, and I don't have any sort of reaction to say, cheese, I should give up both gluten and dairy for good.

Gluten and dairy.

Both.

I literally, literally cried when my mother told me this.

Now, I've been told I'll get over this, that this could be good for me because I'll expand my food horizons and be healthier and probably learn to cook since if I want to eat anything than just slabs of meat and salad I'll have to cook my own meals, and that after a while I won't miss these foods at all, but still I can't help but be upset, because, well, cheese.

I love it. My one consolation when I heard I might have to live gluten free, was that at least I could still have nachos. (You have no idea how much I love nachos.)


Well, since this might be my last night of gluten and dairy, my little sister and I are going out to eat. I'm getting a blooming onion, since I love it so much and will definitely miss it. I tried to force my friend Jasmine to go with me, but she said she just got off work and was too tired and wanted to take a nap. *Makes face at her* Bah. I've been exhausted for a year now. If I stay awake for more than five hours straight I get so tired I feel like crying, and still I drag myself out of bed to see her when she complains that it seems like I fell off the face of the earth, she sees me so little. *sticks tongue out at her*

Not that I'm really mad at her. Just at the world in general, my doctor who can't give me anything definite but still wants me to drastically change my diet for the rest of my life, and my bad luck. :(


Now I'm going to go back to editing my J2 love story to make myself feel better.

Thought I'd share what a little bit about my Big Bang fic. :)


Title: Disaster. (This is a Good One.)

Summary: Jared, a college drop-out, unlucky in love and a self-professed "loser" finds himself at the end of his rope. His long-time boyfriend, Misha, has ditched him at the last moment, right before the family Christmas dinner Jared'd planned to bring him to, and thanks to an untimely phone call from his mother, Jared's family thinks Misha is still coming. A series of uncomfortable moments later--including awkward phone calls to his exes, a terrible trip to the mall with is best friend where they were escorted out by security, and a run in with a schizophrenic who thought Jared was trying to take him into a secret government lab--and Jared has Jensen--an angry, former lawyer who's dedicated his life to charity work--handcuffed in his car, blackmailed and forced into pretending to be Jared's boyfriend. As the holiday stretches on and the charade he's involved in becomes less and less a lie, Jared is only sure of one thing: he should stop listening to Chad.


My artist is eryslash, and I'm extremely excited about it. You all should go check out the art on her journal, it's awesome.

So, thanks to longsufferingly and her story I've become ridiculously addicted to this stupid Robot Unicorn Attack game. Its very pink, and sparkly and the soundtrack is atrocious and yet catchy at the same time.

You should go play it.

Seriously. Go play it and then read her J2 story based off of it, where Jared is a robot unicorn who is sure that there has to be more to life than just running and jumping from land mass to land mass and exploding stars with his horn, and Jensen is an angry, sparkly dolphin who likes to jump and frolic in the waves--and no, he doesn't find that emasculating in the slightest.

It's great crack. :D

I don't know how she takes these crazy ideas that seem really stupid and then turn them into quirky, well written and endearing little ficlets. She amazes me.

It amuses me that while writing scenes with Chris Kane in my J2 RPS stories, I keep accidentally typing "Christ" instead of "Chris." Apparently, Jensen's best friend is a chain smoking, cowboy boot wearing Jesus, who has a surprisingly dirty mouth.

So, I should be focusing on what I'm trying to write right now. (The Christmas J2 Au, which, while going slow, I'm absolutely loving.) But instead my mind keeps wandering to the possible sequel I'm tempted to write for that ridiculous Big Foot!Jared fic. I really want Chris and Steve to meet Jared. I keep thinking of this scene where Chris is all, "So... your new best friend is a yeti." and Jared being all offended and "I am not a yeti." And then I want Wookie references and the boys being all horrified that Jared has never seen Star Wars.

But. Christmas fic. Needs to be done. And soon.

And those comments asking me for a sequel on the other so do not help.

*sigh*

No, brain. I will not write a last minute Christmas J2 fic based on an ABC family special trailer I just happened to see while watching crappy TV with my cousin. No, stop planning it out.

Uh uh, Jared is not a college drop out dissatisfied with his crappy fish tank factory job and lack of love life, desperate to prove to his family that he is worth something.

Nope, Jensen isn't an over enthusiastic do-gooder who is so busy with his many charities and community services that he doesn't actually have a life of his own.

And no, Jared will not kidnap Jensen and force him to be his date for the holidays, thereby forcing them to spend loads of time together so that they can fall absolutely, positively, and very cheesily in love.

And Chad will not fail as a best friend/co-kidnapper and get drunk and gamble away the three thousand dollars of charity money they were holding hostage in order to ensure Jensen's cooperation.

Misha Collins might very well wander out of the country and gather all his minions in a secret location, spending his Christmas touching up the final plans for when he takes over the world, but I will not write it.

No, I will not, too much to write already.

*stares at open word document.*

Damn it.