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A minor emotional breakdown.
I feel like crying. My cat knocked my external harddrive off my desk and its not working now. The computer doesn't recognize it, it doesn't even light up, and it just keeps making these short humming noises, like the disk inside is trying to spin but can't.
I just got this thing last Christmas.
These past few weeks have seriously, seriously sucked. It's just one thing after another, with my aunt finally declaring my mother dead to her and saying she never wants to see her again, completely splitting my family up, that fight with my mother and all the tension it has caused in my family, fucking loan issues again, all my friends graduating and moving out of the state, leaving me extremely bored and no where to escape when my family goes nuts, this thing with my brother (who has been declared psychotic by the doctor and is now on anti-psych meds. When I last went to see him, I could barely recognize him, he was so out of it), and now my stupid fucking cat broke my harddrive, which yes, isn't the end of the world, but it had all of my writing, and art and months worth of time and effort spent in fanvideos and ripping dvds to use for fanvideos and all of my music and I just want to Fucking. Scream. with frustration at it all.
This summer was supposed to be all about calming down and collecting myself and getting in a better state of mind after the absolute suckfest that was last semester, and that just hasn't been happening. I feel worse than ever.
And my mother wont stop fucking calling me from her room for the most stupid shit.
School starts monday and I'm already seriously stressed out. I don't see how this semester can go any better than the last one.
I just got this thing last Christmas.
These past few weeks have seriously, seriously sucked. It's just one thing after another, with my aunt finally declaring my mother dead to her and saying she never wants to see her again, completely splitting my family up, that fight with my mother and all the tension it has caused in my family, fucking loan issues again, all my friends graduating and moving out of the state, leaving me extremely bored and no where to escape when my family goes nuts, this thing with my brother (who has been declared psychotic by the doctor and is now on anti-psych meds. When I last went to see him, I could barely recognize him, he was so out of it), and now my stupid fucking cat broke my harddrive, which yes, isn't the end of the world, but it had all of my writing, and art and months worth of time and effort spent in fanvideos and ripping dvds to use for fanvideos and all of my music and I just want to Fucking. Scream. with frustration at it all.
This summer was supposed to be all about calming down and collecting myself and getting in a better state of mind after the absolute suckfest that was last semester, and that just hasn't been happening. I feel worse than ever.
And my mother wont stop fucking calling me from her room for the most stupid shit.
School starts monday and I'm already seriously stressed out. I don't see how this semester can go any better than the last one.
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Any hope of extracting the data from your hard drive? My friend's laptop completely busted and they managed to extract all his documents. I'm hoping you can save your stuff.
Bah! Stupid fucking everything. I swear alongside you in solidarity for all that SUCKS!
Anything I can do to make it better? Drabble? Anything you want. Wanna read the angsty Spuffy WIP I was doing for you? There's 5000 words of angst in there.
This is my anthem for badness - Pain by Three Days' Grace. Which totally should be a S6 Spuffy vid imo.