aisalynn | I love cheese. (This seems random, but is, in fact, relevant.)

Once again I am in an empty room at the church my sister works at, writing a gay love story while waiting for her to be done. Or, well, frantically editing a gay love story, since I just realized that I have just eight days until my Big Bang posting date and I'm not with this beast of a story. Which reminds me, I already have a beta but anyone on my flist willing to give this a read through and tell me what they think? You don't have to some serious beta-ing (unless, of course you want to) I'm just looking for general reactions and thoughts. You know, whether the progression and characterizations seem natural. I realize that this is a horrible thing to ask with just little over a week before my posting date, but I kinda got distracted with all this health crap and got behind. (It's kinda hard to write and edit when you are sleeping most of the time.)

Speaking of the Health Crap, I got the test results back on the celiac's panel and they were negative. However, they still want me to go through with the upper endoscopy tomorrow because they want to look for a some kind of bacterial infection in my intestines. Also, the food allergy IGE came back and, just like I thought, I'm allergic to milk.

Hah. Take that, Mother. I told you years ago when you were forcing me to drink milk with every meal that I got sick and thought I was lactose intolerant or something, and you always just scoffed at me. Well look. I am. And if you had stopped giving it to me as a child I might have grown out of it.

My triumph on that account is almost completely dwarfed, however, by my absolute horror at the fact that my doctor thinks that I might still be gluten sensitive and that even though my allergy to milk is mild, and I don't have any sort of reaction to say, cheese, I should give up both gluten and dairy for good.

Gluten and dairy.

Both.

I literally, literally cried when my mother told me this.

Now, I've been told I'll get over this, that this could be good for me because I'll expand my food horizons and be healthier and probably learn to cook since if I want to eat anything than just slabs of meat and salad I'll have to cook my own meals, and that after a while I won't miss these foods at all, but still I can't help but be upset, because, well, cheese.

I love it. My one consolation when I heard I might have to live gluten free, was that at least I could still have nachos. (You have no idea how much I love nachos.)

Well, since this might be my last night of gluten and dairy, my little sister and I are going out to eat. I'm getting a blooming onion, since I love it so much and will definitely miss it. I tried to force my friend Jasmine to go with me, but she said she just got off work and was too tired and wanted to take a nap. *Makes face at her* Bah. I've been exhausted for a year now. If I stay awake for more than five hours straight I get so tired I feel like crying, and still I drag myself out of bed to see her when she complains that it seems like I fell off the face of the earth, she sees me so little. *sticks tongue out at her*

Not that I'm really mad at her. Just at the world in general, my doctor who can't give me anything definite but still wants me to drastically change my diet for the rest of my life, and my bad luck. :(

Now I'm going to go back to editing my J2 love story to make myself feel better.

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Two things I love most in this world... Cheese... and Bacon...

I know if I could erase both from my dietary consumption, I would probably be 15% healthier and possibly on my way to losing weight (which my disability cries out for me to do)... but I just CANNOT fathom my life without either. I've already given up sweets and larger portions of food... just can't do anymore. Oh, well... I'm better when I can maintain than freak out and become depressed about what I can't eat anymore.

I have no doubt if I went to a gluten-free diet my health would improve greatly. Just can't do it. I love food too much.

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Funny, you should mention the fic... I was just about to start constructing an email to you, tell you I was ready and willing whenever you were ready, if you had gotten back into the BB Groove again. I wasn't sure if you'd be able to work on the writing with all of the sleeping and medical appointments you were doing. Not to mention just having to deal with the upcoming changes to your life; diet and otherwise.

Send it to me whenever. I will start working on it, thoroughly, the second I find it in my email. Even if it's close to the wire of posting date. (Gosh, it's already here! June took so long to get over)

Oh, yeah... that is if I'm still the "beta" you're talking about (hehehe)...

Can't wait to re-read and see what new stuff you've added.

hugs...Sonny

Blooming onions and nachos. I LOVE THEM. The blooming onion is a special treat for me, I get it probably once every few months or so, but nacho's are essential in my life. I can't imagine it without nachos. It just seems sad and dreary. *whimpers*

Haha, yes you are definitely the beta I was referring to. :) And I was just about to write an e-mail to you as well. Mostly detailing about how I haven't been editing my story as much as I should have over the past few months, and that I'm seriously behind and I'm so terribly sorry if I end up sending this to you really close to the deadline. Heh. *looks nervous*

So yeah, not too much new stuff yet. I keep going back to that damn sex scene and rewriting it. I tell you, unless the sex is angry I just can't write it. Gah. It's so frustrating. I'll probably end up sending it to you with a desperate plea for help, just to let you know.

If you were at the restaurant I'm thinking you're at for a "blooming onion" fix, then I'll slide my own desperation for Kookaburra Wings and Gold Coast Coconut Shrimp. Ah, jus' thinkin' 'bout it makes me hungry.

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Hehehe, that's what I thought. That woulda been cool had our emails met one another out in cyberspace and canceled each other out. Eh, now you won't have to wax poetic about what's been keeping you from editing (you really don't have to explain unless you need to vent and it makes you feel better; trust me, I'm willing to listen)

DO NOT even try to apologize. How were you to know that this medical issue would crop up around the time of BB this year? I'm just so proud and deeply respectful that you're even willing to keep going on and try to finish this.

It's really okay if the *new stuff* isn't as much as I thought or what you had promised me a month ago. You've still got a great BB fic without all the heavy sexin'.

And yes... yes, yes, yes... send me whatever you need to send me of what's completed. I'm willing to help you out with whatever you may need. I've written ALL types of sex scenes... sensual to a really good intense sexual one and even rough ones. I've got no problem helping you out in that area. Gosh, especially since you were trying to write IN A CHURCH...

Even if you just have a "skeleton" scene already set up where you didn't know where to take the J's... I can work well with what I'm given.

hugs...SONNY

Okay, you know what? Since this is really hanging me up and stopping me from focusing on other parts of the story why don't I just send you what I have right now and then move on? You don't have to do anything with it tonight if you don't want to, but it will be a relief to have it out of my hands for a while. :)

Just read it in my InBox... will construct the sexin' as prescribed.

Awesome! This'll be such fun!

How "slutty" did you want Jared, again? (tehehehe)

No worries, referring back to your email where you mention how you wanted the 'sex' to look.

thanx... hugs...SONNY

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