and even if both of them weren't lost in a morass of darkness, Buffy was.

how do you balance demands of family/friends, your duties to the 'world', AND the fact that you've just lost the only pure happiness you've ever known?


her desire to feel FEEL anything except for the emptiness/pain that she feels, makes soooo much sense.

and spike's desire, as echoed in your fic, to do whatever he could to make her happy, even temporarily, makes sense.