*blushes* Thanks so much, hun. Your comments always have me grinning like an idiot.

Yeah, I need something like this as well. I needed to see Dean mourning--we didn't really get to see that in the episode.

and the thought of him not BEING at all must rip dean to shreds.

Exactly. I really wanted to bring that point home, without just saying it.

This was incredibly hard to write. I kept crying through out it, and then I cried when I was reading through it and it was just. A mess. I was a little surprised it even came out coherent.