OMFG. BB, I AM SO DAMN GLAD YOU ARE WRITING FOR THIS FANDOM! As much as this broke my heart all over again, i NEEDED to read something like this. I needed to read dean's pain at losing sam and this illustrated it perfectly. That no matter how much he tries, sam is always, always going to come first and the thought of him not BEING at all must rip dean to shreds.

GOD, this is so beautiful. I AM IN AWE. You are AMAZING for writing this -- i can't even imagine how hard it must have been to write it! <33 LOVE THIS!